Again...

So I have a friend who I am relatively consistently a jerk around. More often than not, I'm self-centered and jealous. I'm not quite sure why these "qualities" seem to come to the surface more with this friend, but they do.

My friend usually says very little but simply allows me to realize the errors of my actions. Quite often, I'll admit, I realize them much later. Last night was different, I realized it almost immediately. I wasn't being affirming. I wasn't building my friend up. I wasn't acting out Ephesians 4:29 - "Let no corrupt word proceed out of your mouth, but what is good for necessary edification, that it may impart grace to the hearers."

I did call and apologize, but it still doesn't erase the "icky" feeling I have that once again reminds me that I am still very much flesh. The amazing thing is that as soon as I realize and repent...Christ steps in with His mercy and grace...He steps in to say, "Go, and sin no more." And I am given the courage to change and accept the victory Christ has already won.